Merry Christmas, but I honestly can’t help but be sour about it. My grinch is about to come out. Although I’m grateful, it’s been a tough one this year. Well what do you mean? My aorta dissected Sunday evening, and well it was pretty big event for me and my family. If you are new to my blog, I don’t post much on here but i talk about Marfan’s and having faith in Jesus. Marfan’s is a connective tissue disease that affects the heart, lungs, eyes, and other areas. I’m sure your asking how in the world my aorta went into dissection. And all I can say to you it’s a Marfan’s thing.

My symptoms started when I went to lay down to take a nap, and I was looking forward to some good sleep. I then felt a sudden sharp burning pain from the middle of my back to my left side. I was like am I having a heart attack? Of course I start googling things, but it was all minor things. So I was like I’ll lay down, and if it’s worse or still there I go to the hospital. Well it got worse, so I called my mom in tears. She and my stepdad came to help me. I get to the ER, and start puking. Oooweee side note I had my daughter in 2019. As a woman your bladder never really goes back to normal. So the slightest sneeze, cough or anything can trigger a trickle of urine. In my case a lot of urine.

I was trying to talk to doctors, but kept puking. They saw I was a heart patient, and immediately did a CTA and discovered I dissected. While I was there they gave some medication to calm my stomach, because I couldn’t get a word out without you know throwing up. The doctor came in and said we are sending you in by helicopter to where I originally had my open heart surgery done. While this was happening I was in communication with my husband. God bless him, because a Marfan’s life is not for the weak. Every day you wake up it’s something different or going on. I can’t tell you how many doctor’s visits I’ve had this year while meeting my deductible yet I’m not considered disable because I can still get around.

Once I get to the hospital they are asking me questions. which I probably was the nicest person because I was in pain, and I finally stopped throwing up. Honestly how would you feel? I honestly think about Jesus a lot in these times just because he went through what he went through on the cross and then said Father forgive them. I always wondered how did he get to this point. Anyways after being settled in my room, I was given medication and finally felt some relief. You know how in cartoons they sit in a warm bath or something and go ahhhhh like a sigh of relief. That’s how it was for me.

I spent the next 3 days in the Hospital, where they did test and adjusted my medication. I talked to the doctor, and he pretty much said there was nothing I could have done to prevent this. See with Marfan’s I am at a much higher risk of things happening, so when I say it’s a Marfan’s thing it’s literally Marfan’s thing. I sometimes why I was given this specific condition, and what is it I’m supposed to learn from it. I’m sure your wondering why am I thinking that way. Well if you believe in God, which I do you know he is all knowing. He sees the past present, and future. So what plan does he have for my life with this condition?

Anyways that’s a topic for another time. I going to close with this. Next year I will try to post more on my blog. I have a few things I want to share about my walk with Christ, and with Marfan’s in general. I want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! Whether your mourning a loved one, had an operation, or recovering from dissection like me, or figuring out you new normal. You will get there. Give yourself grace, because God is giving you grace and mercy right now as you read this. Anyways love you all! Here’s a pic of me in the Hospital.